nevertoolate

I swear this song plays in my ears day by day
Takes me far from misery, temporarily brings my
pain and suffering away
I'm not where I want to be in life, feel stuck in place
Walk with my heart tucked under my sleeve, expression of
facade pasted on my face
Moms tells me I should call my dad, who knows
if it could make my days glisten
But the media warns not to talk to strangers, I guess this
is the first time I actually listened
Body engulfed in pain I see what it all does to her, praying
it'll come to a halt
I'm not where I want to be in life, damn right this is my fault
Shorty says I'll ride or die for you, I'm always here
I battle with those words everyday, years amongst years
I've lived in fear
Free me from my wounds, heal my soul is all I ask
This dream they call happiness, hands slippery
therefore I cannot grasp
Why is it I'm a prisoner of my own mind, myself at most
So far away from the future, but my past feels so close
So here I stand pouring my heart out through
these Blackberry buttons, 53rd and 5th
I'm not where I want to be in life, glory feels like forever,
disaster comes oh so swift
I can't find my way out, just one escape route to let me go
Kush, green eyes, and snow ready for the taking, life seems better once
feelings are numb, when your heart beats slow
Sooner or later it all comes crashing down, well that's
what the song said
Judged by who I was in my premature years, not by the kind
of life I've lead
I'm sorry if I'm not of the norm, so loving me may take time
Anger, sorrow, mistrust is what satisfies me the most, a better tomorrow
never guaranteed to be mine
I'm sorry