truelies

Sorry
Sorry I didn't hurt you like you thought I would
Tell you I could do better or maybe that you should
Wear a little more make up to cover the hidden insecurities your smile keeps captured
Let go of your hand when girls walk by, as if I aint know you, just to look backwards
Lie to you to buy time for a quick fix, lay back rollin' up while another shorty waits in line
Feed her the same shit I tell you, that I want this forever and I plan to make every part of her God-given body mine
Tell you you're the only one and I promise I won't leave, crossing my fingers to secure a forge on this plight
Brag about how fly I am, how much money I got, or how my team pop bottles day and night
But
Wait, that sounds all wrong
Sorry
Sorry I tried to open up a whole new world to you, show you not everything's the way people make it seem
Let you confide in me at your worst times, only God knows happiness is all but a dream
Stopped everything I was doing when you called in distress, man weren't those times scary?
Spent irreplaceable time catching you after you fell from life's miseries, take you miles away from saddened and weary
Gave you everything I had, mind body and soul til' there was nothing left
Shit, I think I care so much that if it were possible, I wouldn't hesitate to give you my last breath
Cursed those who wished harm on you, as if your success was their biggest fear
Badgered myself each time you cried or your heart bled, o how bad I wish I was there
Expressed how I felt with my hugs and kisses, afraid my words would haunt me, please don't let them catch me
Yearned for a kiss from your chocolate lips, pun intended, watch you walk away each time you passed me
Sat still to remember everything I loved about you and your body, while you point out flaws in the mirror
Got mad all the times you would pull away from my arms, the girl I want is you, do I need to make it any clearer?
Trusted you with my heart and its energy, trying to make this long lost wish come true
History says that Moses once divided a sea to battle an army, I don't think the world's ready to see what I would do for you
Rewrite my past, become my present, even create a future for us too
Sign here on this dotted line, promise me you'll make a change, I'll do the same all for the better
No this isn't goodbye to us my dear, this is just goodbye to forever

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CoryChris[].

nevertoolate

I swear this song plays in my ears day by day
Takes me far from misery, temporarily brings my
pain and suffering away
I'm not where I want to be in life, feel stuck in place
Walk with my heart tucked under my sleeve, expression of
facade pasted on my face
Moms tells me I should call my dad, who knows
if it could make my days glisten
But the media warns not to talk to strangers, I guess this
is the first time I actually listened
Body engulfed in pain I see what it all does to her, praying
it'll come to a halt
I'm not where I want to be in life, damn right this is my fault
Shorty says I'll ride or die for you, I'm always here
I battle with those words everyday, years amongst years
I've lived in fear
Free me from my wounds, heal my soul is all I ask
This dream they call happiness, hands slippery
therefore I cannot grasp
Why is it I'm a prisoner of my own mind, myself at most
So far away from the future, but my past feels so close
So here I stand pouring my heart out through
these Blackberry buttons, 53rd and 5th
I'm not where I want to be in life, glory feels like forever,
disaster comes oh so swift
I can't find my way out, just one escape route to let me go
Kush, green eyes, and snow ready for the taking, life seems better once
feelings are numb, when your heart beats slow
Sooner or later it all comes crashing down, well that's
what the song said
Judged by who I was in my premature years, not by the kind
of life I've lead
I'm sorry if I'm not of the norm, so loving me may take time
Anger, sorrow, mistrust is what satisfies me the most, a better tomorrow
never guaranteed to be mine
I'm sorry

comatose

He wasn't sure what it was
Or how it came about
Would doctoral assistance help?
Who knows
Doc, what's wrong with me and,
What is this?
Well, Doc replies
Whatever it is it's drawing massive attention
As if a wanted sickness
You must try to get away, too much may harm you
Unusual because it satisfies your mind like no other
Some kind of attraction, side effects highly possible
Such as erratic feelings, substance abuse,
Heart pain very likely also
Puzzled, he asks
So in lament's terms this means what?
Doc replies
Whatever she has, it's drawing massive attention
As if a wanted sickness
You must try to get away, too much of her may harm you
Unusual because she satisfies your mind like no other
Some kind of attraction, side effects highly possible
Such as erratic feelings, substance abuse,
Heart pain very likely also
He recommended I break away, fight to
cut this bad habit
I've tried
But
I can't
Addiction
Who's your addiction?